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Chekov, Pavel Andreievich ([personal profile] candothat) wrote2021-10-22 07:02 pm
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PS-El: Part II

At oh-eight-hundred in the morning following Lieutenant Pavel Chekov's well-intentioned abduction of a spatially and temporally-displaced teenager, Chekov is on his way to medbay to retrieve said teenager for an interview with Captain Kirk, Commander Spock, and Doctor McCoy. 

His own interview had started nearly an hour and a half ago, very shortly after Kirk woke up and read Chekov's recently-submitted incident report. Chekov regrets flagging his report as urgent; perhaps he would have had time to catch a nap if he hadn't. Then again, how could he have fallen asleep with the very real threat of disciplinary action hanging over his head?

Fortunately, none of Chekov's superior officers had suggested a court-martial or stripping him of his rank. They weren't happy with him, by any means, but Kirk and McCoy had been relatively sympathetic, and Spock's main concern was Chekov's lack of communication with him or the captain. It was agreed that El was likely better off in the safety of their medbay than on the base; Starbase 17's commander, Chekov was told, is a notoriously unpleasant individual who prioritizes Federation interests, scientific or otherwise, over things like morals and ethics. That said, Chekov hadn't known anything about El when he brought her aboard, and they still only knew as much as Chapel's medical scans revealed. Captain Kirk and Spock hoped to determine what level of threat the girl posed, if any, by talking to her.

(McCoy thought Kirk and Spock were foolish for being so worried about a hungry seventeen year-old who clearly needed their help. Chekov is inclined to side with the doctor, but he realizes that he is somewhat biased.)

The Russian enters medbay. Chapel -- still on duty even though gamma shift ended hours ago -- looks up from her datapad. "Welcome back, lieutenant," she says, waving him in.

"I am still welcome?" Chekov means it as a joke, but it comes out a little too earnest to be convincing. "You have a double shift?"

"I asked M'Benga to trade shifts with me. I'd rather pull a double than explain all of this to someone else." 

"You are an angel, Christine, thank you," the lieutenant replies, although he knows Chapel well enough to know that this is not strictly true. He looks towards where he left El. Hopefully she's awake... he will feel bad if he has to wake her up. "I need to borrow El, if she can be discharged. The captain would like to speak with her."

Chapel looks... relieved? "She's free to leave."

"Thank you." Chekov turns his full attention to their visitor from another time and place. "El? Would you come with me, please?"
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[personal profile] likeitsgoingtorain 2021-12-23 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
El starts to nod, then shake her head, and ends up doing some strange combination of both. She can't remember having a panic attack before, but her memories feel so far out of reach; her mind is utterly focused on feeling like she's dying.

To her utter disgust and humiliation, tears well up in her eyes. She's teetering on the edge of hideous, wracking sobs -- which will probably be healthy for her, but that doesn't make her any more inclined to indulge.
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[personal profile] likeitsgoingtorain 2021-12-23 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
His understanding -- she wants to interpret it as condescension, but she feels gentle echoes of her mother in his calm validation -- is what sets El off into gut-wrenching sobs. It's utterly humiliating and she hates every second ... but it's exactly what she needs, shattering the fortress she keeps around her vulnerabilities. And just as before, when Aadhya had asked if she'd been the one to kill the maw-mouth in the library and she had been forced to come clean about not wanting to join an enclave, El feels... safer? Sick, exhausted, miserable, angry, but connected to Chekov in a way she hadn't been before.

When she's finally able to speak, she blows her nose and says: "You can kill me now. That'd be great."
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[personal profile] likeitsgoingtorain 2022-01-01 05:41 am (UTC)(link)
El waves her hand derisively, because needing reassurance that it's okay to have a panic attack is even more embarrassing than the panic attack itself.

"It just took me by surprise," she says... then adds, with unwanted vulnerability -- "Is there somewhere else we can go?"

She's willing to confide in him, somewhat to her surprise, but it's not in her nature to just dump information on people. If he asks questions, though, she'll give him genuine answers.
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[personal profile] likeitsgoingtorain 2022-01-01 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
El is unspeakably grateful for his tact and discretion. And a little puzzled when he brings her to her "room."

"Did I kick someone out of their room?" she asks. "Or do you just have a lot of single rooms here?" She feels like she's seen too many people aboard the ship for everyone to have their own room, unless the ship had some magic like the Scholomance.
likeitsgoingtorain: (wtf)

[personal profile] likeitsgoingtorain 2022-01-02 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
Of course El notices the holopic, and the Cyrillic books. She picks up one and glowers at him.

"If your crew's so small, why exactly am I kicking you out of your room?" she asks, her voice sounding deadly (though really she's just peeved). She likes Chekov, and she doesn't like the idea of taking his space from him. Surely they could find space for her that would be less inconvenient -- maybe a security officer who could use a roommate and do double duty as keeping an eye on her as a potential threat. That would make much more sense than kicking someone who's been nothing but nice out of his space.
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[personal profile] likeitsgoingtorain 2022-01-06 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
Sorry, Chekov; this is not going to be today's easy thing. Kicking him out of his bedroom hits at something visceral. The bedrooms in the Scholomance were like a shoddy suit of armor: far from actually "safe," but better than nothing ... and personally, intensely yours, no matter how barren they were.

"You're not going to get a cwtch by making a martyr of yourself," she snaps. "Did you even give anyone a chance to offer a different solution or did you just immediately grab the answer most inconvenient for you?"
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[personal profile] likeitsgoingtorain 2022-01-17 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
She's fucked up. When will she learn to keep her damn mouth shut? El covers her face with her hands and resists the urge to kick the wall, because 'violence is never the right reaction to frustration, even if it's against an inanimate object.'

"Look, I'm sorry," she grounds out after lowering her hands. "I'll take the room. I just hate causing trouble for people, especially when they've been nice to me." After a beat, she adds dryly: "I know I'm not always great at showing that."
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[personal profile] likeitsgoingtorain 2022-01-24 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
"Then enjoy your slumber party, I guess," El says with a wry grin.