likeitsgoingtorain: (telling off)
likeitsgoingtorain ([personal profile] likeitsgoingtorain) wrote in [personal profile] candothat 2021-10-19 11:23 pm (UTC)

this is all canonicaly accurate but i promise she's not an angst muffin in the books lmao

It's really not a difficult question to answer, but El finds herself momentarily blanking. She scrambled to remember what year she was inducted into the Scholomance and added from there.

"Er...2021, Wales...Earth?"

An irrational panic began building in her chest. Technically speaking, the Scholomance didn't exist on Earth -- it occupied a void only loosely connected to the U.K., so that it would be more difficult for mals to break into the school and attack the vulnerable children. But it's not like she was born in the void. And it's not like she's bothered by the concept of the void; she'd slept next to an opening into the abyss for four years. There's absolutely no reason for this question to trigger a panic attack, except she can hear her mother saying Our bodies aren't rational, love and Sometimes people fall apart because it's finally safe enough to let go.

I love you, have courage, and stay far away from Orion Lake.

She chokes, almost bruising her throat as she stifled a sob. She wants to scream so loudly the universe puts itself to rights just to shut her up. She wants to tear a hole through the fabric of reality until she feels her mother's arms around her. She wants to kick Orion in the nuts so hard it rewinds time and he never pushes her through that damn gate.

And of course, because she's Galadriel, "all shall love me and despair," prophesized to a fate so heinous her devoutly non-violent extended family thought about killing her ... she doesn't come across as sad or vulnerable or in any way sympathetic. She looks like she's ready to blow up a planet.

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